Some reasons why don't I want to be a member of JKT48

(warning: this is an unimportant post! wakakakakakakb48)


1. I'm on my way to turn 23 years old.
2. I'm wearing a hijab.
3. I'm a senior student about to finish her study very soon
4. I don't want to be banned from dating
5. I'm overweight
6. I'm going to be a teacher very soon.
7. I dance poorly
8. I can't sing well
9. I don't want to live in jakarta
10. I don't want my private life being known by public
11. I do want to be loved, but I don't think being over-adored is good. Well, I have experiencing adoring my favorite teacher too much and she felt annoyed. What's worse, I did this for years.
12. I want to be a linguist.
13. Being a member of JKT48 means a limitation on using twitter. Well, as what I observed, everytime they tweet, they mostly say this: "Hai, udah makan?" "Lagi ngapain?" "Besok aku Theater" ewww...... seems that they never tweet any other topic, or are they forbidden to do so? can you imagine if a member of JKT48 tweeted this: "ndi @mashuriMAM @muse_encha @uchan_trueblue jarene kate kelompokan???"
14. Having a tight schedule and to spend every nights for rehearsal makes my thesis abandoned.
15. I still want to keep all my social media accounts and to keep in touch with my friends.
16. I want to concentrate on my thesis
17. The reason above is actually what I have to do now instead of posting this
18. I still want to eat cilok SMAN 8 very often
19. In fact, I don't know who are the members of AKB48. If I work as a member of JKT48, it means that I have to be a fan of AKB48 also, and to find an oshimen. Well, I'm not a japanese things enthusiast, even I know JKT48 firstly than AKB48, and  I don't want to be a wota.
when I was a teen, I was a wota of Westlife (heeey, westlife is an Irish boyband, why do I use the term 'wota'??) Yes, my affection for them was waaaaaaaay to big. I WAS!
20. I'm actually already a member of a(n UNofficial parody) group of 48 family, it is......

DMF48!!!

from discrimination to stereotypes

I miss my facebook and twitter as well.

but I have made such decision to deactivate all my social media accounts, and I do this on purpose.
for the sake of my thesis.

to make me be focused, indeed.

yesterday I had a consultation with my advisor.

Me: Sir, from the data I collected, all of them are exposing a gender stereotype, not a discrimination. is it OK to change my focus on gender stereotype?

My advisor: OK. No problem.

later, at home, when I checked my Chapter I file.... I found out that I have written like 11 pages, boasting about gender discrimination and I suddenly have a willing to change into gender stereotypes. I feel like taking a panadol with coca cola -_-"

argh, thesis writing is always and supposed to be hard. Tough.

The certainty =)

the official announcement from the English Department

it is written that the deadline of thesis draft submission is on April 6th. Hell, fu*k, yeah... huahahaaa.... emm.. err, but... this deadline only applies for those who are going to graduate this semester.

While I'm still have approximately 2 semesters to go. 

So, I don't need to meet the deadline! It's OK for me if I reach my 5th chapter (conclusion and suggestion) on late april. 

And I still wish the same thing: to have my oral defense on may 3rd. amiin....

My Youtube debut!

I'm NOT a good singer.
I don't know how to manage my voice.
I slip many tunes,
But I dared myself to do this.
to kill the boredom due to this THESIS WRITING!!

have a check, this time I sing Ten2five's song titled "I will fly"
this song was a hit back when I was a 9 grader.

I'll be glad if you are willing to appreciate:)

RANDOM: I fall in love with Topo Gigio, an Italian puppet show which was famous back in 1960s. My senior, mas Dany, is called "Topo Gigio" by his friends in capoeira. Then he showed me the picture of Topo Gigio in his phone, and I can't help myself to fall in love with this cute mouse! :)
Wish that I can have the copy of all its episodes as well as the dolls....

it's ARTWORK time!

Long story short, tomorrow is my thesis advisor's birthday.

so, I made this doodle for him.

Is it appropriate to give a professor this cute doodle?

it's kinda girly, but... I wish that he will appreciate this.

OK, my friends said that I'm good at remembering birthdays, and especially my fellow senators whose birthdays I always note. Ah, I also remember how I celebrated my lecturers' birthdays in my early years of college :')

Alhamdulillah. Thankful lvl: over 9000~

It's march. And it's a blessed march.
Lord, I thank You for every bless you give. Started on March 9th when I finally got a piece of my poem anthology. Well, having an 8-year process, I finally have written about 110 poems, and I decided to make it into a book!

finally.... Over the morning sky!

It was also on March 9th when I witness some of my friends having their graduation party. Yes, they graduate on their 7th semester....

As we go on, we remember all the times we had together

and as our life change, come whatever

we will still be friends forever :)

This joyous moment continues on the following day when one of those graduates, MeiMei, held a farewell party for us. She treated us lunch at Ayam Goreng Jogja :)

What's more, Citra also held a celebration in the other day :)

It's good to gather with my friends after being separated for months. I love them all, Lord. The best classmates I've ever had :)

it was a memorable night.

I can't believe time flies this fast. It feels like it was just yesterday

when we experienced troubles on arranging KRS for the first time,

when we discussed what specialization to take,

when we were still active in the students association...

and finally, here we come on the senior year and some of us have graduated earlier.

Friends, please keep this bond forever :)

I feel relieved to see my classmates, my close friends who love me for what I am and to respect me in any ways. Love you, guys....

A day after Citra's celebration, my mom's bestfriend celebrated her birthday and invited us to have a dinner in Gloria restaurant, which is famous of its noodles. I felt delighted to taste many kinds of superb cuisine served :)

And it was yesterday when one of my facebook friend who is a newly-wed, mbak Adhe, informed that she will have her honeymoon in Malang. FYI, mbak Adhe is from jambi and I've never been meeting her personally before. She and her husband, mas teguh, invited me and my other 2 seniors - mas Aniq and mas Erwin to have a dinner in Foodcourt matos. and, what's more, they treated us!!

Alhamdulillah, seems that this is also a part of their wedding celebration. I'm delighted with this :)

Glad to know and have them in my life. Glad to have a chance to meet a person that I used to interact virtually, in a real life.

God's bless does not come only in form of fun activities, but also on my... masterpiece-to-be. Hell yeah! My thesis!

deactivating my social media accounts does help. I finally finished my 1st chapter!!! (but with revisions, for sure....) and my advisor allowed me to keep on writing to the 2nd chapter.

Ah, my advisor is so encouraging :) Blessed to have him!!

I am really motivated to finish it and I believe that I can make it on time.

Besides that, One of my childhood mate, Vivi, contacted me. She asked me to do her a favor, which is designing a logo for her onlineshop.

Well, graphic design is not my field, and drawing is just a way to kill my time, but... there's nothing wrong to try new thing!

I'm glad to be reconnected with Vivi, I haven't met her for about 11 years!

and to chat with her, hearing many news about my old friends...

ah, miss them so much :)

This is a blessed march. Hopefully You will shower me with your blesses all life long, Allah....

I'm thankful for anything I have, should I ask for more?

I have nothing more to say but Alhamdulillahirrobbil alamin..... :)

account deactivated

well, dear...
thesis is a hard thing to deal with, I have to elaborate many theories about gender, jokes, and discourse analysis.
and it's not an easy thing to focus, since I'm easily distracted by social media.


hereby I announce that

I deactivate my facebook, twitter, and google+ account, and I will reactivate it when I'm ready

to have my thesis exam.

Bismillah, hope that it will make me focus

and finish my thesis on time!

robbisyrohli sodri wayyasirli amri. Wahlul uqdatam min lisani yafqohu qauli.......